28/01/2021
I am taking a little break from my lunch and movie time, high up in the air somewhere between Amsterdam and Abu-Dhabi.
I am overwhelmed with emotions and so much is happening, so fast,
I wanted to take the time to write my feelings before another wave of emotions washes over.
I want to talk about travel. Travel, the way we knew it. Travel, the way it is now.
I feel incredibly fortunate because over the last year, despite COVID-19 global outbreak, I managed to squeeze in trips when possible and when I felt safe.
My last trip was in early December to Italy and Swiss and after that I enjoyed the Christmas rush and family time. I hated the incredibly dark days and gloomy weather but I wasn’t planning to go anywhere. I knew, like everyone else, I had to stick through this discomfort and plan a trip when it's possible. But universe had a different plan for me, so when an opportunity to travel was presented - I knew I have to take it!
I believe that Is what determines how far you go, how much you see or do. Taking the risks! Adapting quickly.
That is how I find myself on this flight today from Amsterdam to Abu Dhabi and then on to the next (the final) destination..
I had about 4 hour layover in Amsterdam and I was soaking up every moment of it.
I missed traveling. As much as it frightens me – it also elevates me, it makes me feel ecstatic.
And whilst this makes me sound a little bit crazy, it's my truth!
I was thinking about it last night, as I laid my head on the pillow in my bed, at the comfort of my familiar home..
Every trip you take, every journey, every holiday, every time you are making a leap of faith, leaving the familiar comfort behind - it's so frightening, but I still want to do it!
Perhaps it’s my individual experience, or collective feedback, or maybe it’s a human nature – to strive for safety and familiarity.
Traveling is the opposite of that.
It’s uncomfortable, scary and overwhelming.
I am scared of a lot of things but embarking on a new journey is the only thing that I really trust – I lean into the fear – and I surrender – confident that everything always works out!
Perhaps that is why it feels so liberating.
It’s the one aspect in my life where I am taking the risk, aware of the potential threats, downsides and errors that can happen..
I was always hoping to find those butterflies that every romantic movie talks about.
The tingling feeling in your stomach when you look into someone’s eyes. A love that sweeps you off the feet, a passion like no other.
Today, as I was walking through the airport, past the big screens showcasing departure times to all parts of the World, observing people of different race and color, hearing languages that I don’t recognize and feeling the energy of people coming and going – I could feel it – I could feel the butterflies.
A transformative feeling – from scared and nervous anxiety to letting go, surrendering and giving in to the feeling –
I left the comfortable and familiar coach and embarked on a new journey!
I don’t know what will happen!
I don’t know how things will turn out or what my experience will be like,
But I have such deep-rooted belief that things will work out and lessons will present itself.
The butterflies are there.
I feel excited, curious, inspired and energized.
I feel so alive!
The pandemic has changed the way we travel, and the way we live.
It has changed the World, and it happened so quick, like an unexpected punch from the back, it hit us all, each in a different way.
Now we are living in a hope that things will go “back to normal” or get better.
The reality is that we don’t really know, and everything we hear is only a speculation, a hope that we need to keep living..
It’s possible that travel, as we know it, will never go back to normal,
but I know that nothing will change the way I feel about it.
Am I willing to take the risk?
I have to. Otherwise, what is life if we are afraid of living ??
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